I'm sorry to Everyone. For everything.
They are upset of who i changed to be or upset of my loyalty. upset that i am not the friend i used to be during the days i've been upset pushing them away or taking my anger out on them. loving one or some of them so much it kills me or saying i've betrayed them or even saying i've taken advantage of them.
"To Be Honest", I am The one at Fault because i have hurt people, i have people who have said i've overstepped boundaries, some who have even said i did things of nature that was wrong in general. i don't have to tell you what ive done if you knew it, i don't have to tell you what i've done if you feel confused. i have a hard enough time as it is being me.
for the past few days i had to go to the hospital because i had a heart attack. now mind you, im not asking for sympathy, because this maybe something i was cursed to have because i did something wrong.
this maybe something i deserved.
i've dealt with this situation of character since i was in junior high, and some habits die hard. in one point, im considered an asshole. in another i'm considered a creeper. in one instance i'm considered a emotional drama queen. i'm all of those things in perspective. no lie. some of you don't even talk to me anymore because of those things. i know it, you can deny it, but it's true. i express myself only when i need to because i need to show that in reality i need to not hide anything.
it's things like this i regret being social. because it seems my silence, is the best advice i need to give myself, because my voice is a curse. my thoughts is a curse. my personality is cursed, unattractive, and pointless.
*Jurai Or Die*