I feel like sometimes the girl I have feelings for doesn't want to give me the support I expect back even though I support her all the time. When she posts about how she feels bad for those who leave her and how some people who stay with her she is grateful for, I wonder if she even cares about what goes on in their lives? When I lost my aunt, I didn't get any support from her. When I got kicked out she never texted me back . When I dealt with health scares, she never said anything of showing concern. I don't want to be mad at her because she is dealing with the same things as me. Anger, depression. And anxiety. Just like me. But yet I'm able to put those aside to show I care for someone else. Is it because her condition is worse than mine? Is it because it am able to handle it better? I wonder. I don't want to make her mad. I just need more explaination. If only it had a moment to talk to her. Get this out in the open. Even if it meant waiting. Am in wrong for being this pessimistic ?
I don't want my Angel of The Night to end up actually be the Devils advocate.
*Jurai Or die*